murmur from US

                         --  by Guns N' Roses

in the few days ,
i got a lot of emotions
anger anxious ecstasy crazy and depressed

only GNR make me feel i am so alive .
i can change my mind in a second.
maybe just because i could not get the Chinese Democracy  poster
or i am in the B zone .or just because leave him away .

it's unreasonable .
but it is true. 

" this i love " is the encore song in the GNR concert  (12.11.09 in Taipei) .
when i listen the song  , i feel bad , a sad sad memories.
it make me associate with "end" " over" " gone" in thinking.
( it must be the worst Pavlov connection in the world....)

bittersweet.
the only word i could use to describe how i feel those past days is bittersweet .

no one ever told me when
i was alone
they just thought i d know better
better.
                        ------ GNR Better >